3 posts tagged “nick”
My boyfriend, drunk on the evening before his qualifying exam, is holding forth to a group of four people about the furniture and boats he has designed and built.
μεν, I am proud of him and think that he's built some really awesome stuff.
δε, it's the silliest conversation in the world.
today has been my first day of school. i'm typing this in the few
minutes i can grab before my interview shows up -- i have an interview
to do from 3 to 3:20ish.
i have only just now realized that i desperately, desperately do not want to burn any bridges between now and graduate school. i think i might want to be a professor. i thought i didn't but i'm re-evaluating and really? well, maybe... but the past two years have been spotty. not bad
per se, nothing that i would need to be ashamed of, but not of the
caliber that would get me into a first-tier school -- and i won't go if
i can't go to a first-tier school. mike said i'd get an excellent
recommendation, today; nonetheless, an excellent recommendation isn't
enough to get you into grad school.
so.
i think i may have to tell stacia i can't stage-manage her thesis
play. i just can't. i have my quals and i have my own future to think
about, not just the things that will bring me joy in the short-term.
and nick -- nick. i think i need to have a conversation with him about
what this year will be like, because i suspect it will not be like he
thinks it will. i like him very much but i simply have to put him
behind school, and not just behind school in a small way but in a big
way, in a maybe-we'll-just-see-each-other-on-the-weekends-okay? sort of
way.
but! on the plus side, coptic. so that means 4 classes, independent
study coptic, work and just about nothing else. fire dancing is
something i can squeeze in to the off times. so it will be all right.
that's not too much.
yesterday after work nick and i hopped in his car and drove to cannon beach, basically on a whim -- well, we'd decided to go the night before i guess. it was six o'clock when we left so we raced the sun to make it there by sunset, and succeeded, though the sunset was pretty cloudy. it was still beautiful.
apparently you can have bonfires on the beach, and now i really want to have one, and bring our equipment so we can have a burn too. sometime in the winter when no one will really want to be on the beach, so there won't be too many park rangers to tell us to pack it in, maybe. it would have been so heartbreakingly beautiful to firedance on the wet sand by the edge of the sea.
speaking of which, the fire show went off wonderfully. i've said it before but: wow. it was the most professional show we've ever done, and our special performers were fantastic, and overall wow. yesterday, freshmen kept coming in to my work, doing a double take and going "you were in the fire show!" and then trying to get me to teach them the physics of why it doesn't burn you too much when you touch fire.
uhhh, answer: i don't know! it just doesn't, and that's good enough for me. uh... perhaps i should learn some things.
but yes -- cannon beach, and then listening to "sea change" on the drive back in the mighty audi (the land yacht of cars), made me really really happy. i think this is gonna be a good year.
